beautiful people. Skinny Love

Complete and Utter Shite.

My mum dropped a bombshell yesterday - she is leaving my stepdad. We’re moving out as soon as she finds a house to rent.

Thing is my mum has bipolar, doesn’t work and is on benefits. My stepdad worked really hard and I loved him to pieces. 

I feel like my world is falling apart. I won’t be able to look after her when she is sick on my own. I can’t stand the thought of her breaking his heart. I hate the thought of moving. I’m scared. 

I DO NOT WANT THIS TO HAPPEN.

My stepdad doesn’t know either. and it’s so hard.

I want to starve myself.

because I deserve it.

I want to cut my skin up.

because I deserve it.

I want to pull my hair out.

because I deserve it.

I want to burn myself.

because I deserve it.

I want to dig my nails into my skin.

because I deserve it.

I want to take a gun to my head.

because I hate myself.

(Source: skyscraperrrrrrrrrrrr, via ithurtssomuch)

Anonymous said:

Stay strong, skinny love <3 Just because your boyfriend and his mom can't see how much inner and outer beauty you have, doesn't mean the rest of the world can't either. I see it and I'll bet you I live a thousand miles away. Ignore the negativity, you are strong!


I’m guessing you’re from the USA? Only because you said mom haha!

But thank you so much, his mam’s fat too so I don’t understand why she has a go at me? I’ll prove her wrong though :) 

<33


Anonymous said:

hi sweetheart, I just wanted to let you know that you are beautiful and you deserve the best, I hope things brighten up for you soon!


thank you, you’re beautiful too.
Why anonymous though?

xxx 


I haven’t been on tumblr lately, for a number of reasons but I felt a need to come back as lots of awful things are happening and I need to feel like I have someone to talk to, even if its a computer. 

1. My boyfriends mam has started to have sly digs at me. It started off with ‘aren’t you going for a run?’ when my boyfriend went for one. And now she has started asking if I’ve put on weight….

2. Me and my boyfriend were watching the film sleeping beauty and he kept going on and on about her figure. I complained and his reply was ‘well you aren’t exactly skinny are you?’ I was speechless, I couldn’t even argue back. I felt humiliated and sick. My own boyfriend called me fat. 

3. My mum and dad are taking about getting a divorce. No more to say to that….

So yeah, I feel horribly fat and like everything is falling apart.

Give me strength.